deflated ballon

ever felt like a deflated balloon? Where nothing seems to interest you, nothing seems exciting, fun anymore.

that's a little like how my mind has been for a while. not sure what caused it. could due to the jabs.

I'm sure it could be alot worse, from my previous experiences, yep, there were many times when I wanted to smash something. Just smash something really hard on the ground. But I never got the guts to do it, because, I cannot find anything that I can smash that I can feel shiok with! Imagine trying to smash a soft toy.... it will bounce right back up! ha ha ha

I think its only shiok to smash electronics, somehow that image got stuck in my head! sigh...

Balloons are a symbol of fun, to bring some sense of joy to others.

I feel like a deflated balloon, waiting to bring joy, waiting to be filled with gas, hopefully it'll be full again SOON!

jen