Thursday, September 28, 2006

Life's cushions

if a sofa has cushions to give us a comfortable seating/softens our landing when we simply crash onto the sofa.... then what about our life?

do we have cushions to soften our landing when we face with some pitfalls? do we have cushions to help us ease some of the heartaches that we have?

our cushions are our dear dear friends!

regardless of what experiences we have, we simply wanna share them with our cushions! they make us feel comforted, assured, loved and protected.

We are tremendously grateful for our ever growing number of cushions, :)

friends are God's gift to us... our life's cushions...

hee.... so the bigger you are... the better the cushioning effect! ha ha ha

God's gentle touches

There were many occasions when I wonder if God really exists in the lives of those around us. Over the past few weeks, we witness more and more testimonies from our friends who opened up their lives and shared with us how God has touched them. In turn, God has also touched us....

One of our good friends has frustrations with work and how his performance is not recognized and rewarded accordingly for the longest time. Yet he is one of the highest earners that we know.... we firmly believe that he's got great potential and fully believe that he's capable of more. Over the years, we've seen how he's grown from strength to strength at work and how he could afford many many luxuries which many can only dream. Frequent overseas golf games, own two cars, stay in condo, buy xbox, PSP, latest gadgets and games you name it. Yet, as his material assets grow, his emotional self seems to be more empty....

Last night, he shared with us how he has forgotten to give thanks for God's blessings. For many of the good fortune which he felt he doesn't even deserve. He was ecstatic about how grateful he is. Best part was, he made a realization that, he was feeling the most lonely when he had all his material gains (new xbox games/gadgets will only feed him for 15mins and he'll be left feeling empty). On the other hand, when he was troubled and had God close to his heart, he was feeling so much happier!

He reminded us of how much God loves each and everyone of us. In good times and bad. More so, he reminded us that we should always give thanks to God.

He start each day with a prayer of thanks, for all that he has even a "lousy" boss hee....

So let's start today with a prayer of thanks for God's blessings.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

This Months' Slogon



this was taken when we were leaving Paris on our first backpack trip together towards Belgium. More about our europe trip can be found here.

TAGs!!

Yeah... finally got them figured out... so while I'm slowly tagging our previous blog posts... here's what they stand for....

ad - stuff that has Ad in it... anything.... hee...

diving - we enjoyed scuba diving, once used to be a regular activity, now its a luxury to be able to find time/energy/FRIENDS to go diving with us. we always wanna dive with a bunch of friends, so that we do not have to re-invent all the underwater signs again hee....

family - updates or photos or info or thoughts on family....

food - after knowing Ad, i've become a more food person that I know... so food refers to anything we can eat... or drink...

friends - we are always blessed by good company/folks who inspire us, love us and share bits of our lives with us

gadgets - oh... gadgets.. a men's best friend!! who can resist talking about new gadgets?

happenings - stuff that happens.... issues, experiences things that is tough to categorise also goes in here ha ha ha

health - ah... something that we take for granted often, but its something which I'll like to share about, some info may require verifications... so read at your own risk hee...

internet - anything with www the cyberspace that we're all IN and yet how much do we know?

jen - stuff that happens with me lor...

jenad - our lives together hee... *shy*

mac - it stands for.... Mackintosh! yeah! the talk of the town always with their new releases...

marinelife - sea creatures always amazes us, how the tiniest living organism can support the biggest marine mammal, how a translucent jellyfish can be so intelligent to navigate through the waters and prey on its food, how sea life is so abundant and rich, self sufficient, the ecology and social environment, will probably take a few lifetimes to fully comprehand....

moments - there moments when we feel touched by God's grace and mercy. so we blog about it and tag it as moments, moments when we stop to feel God's wonders and love, stop to give thanks and pray... we share these moments with you as a testimony of God's place in our lives...

peanuts- oh, this is NOT about peanut butter... its about Peanuts, a comic strip created, managed solely by Charles Schulz. He hand draws each strip, color and send for prints promptly from day 1 till the last day 50yrs later. Hope to share why I'm so crazyabout this strip and its characters, its merchandise hee...

science - the wonders of nature and how everything interacts with everything else is usually dissected through science...

singapore - we live here, encounter interesting people, instances, queer behaviours or unruly ones... ;-)

travel - doesnt everyone love to travel? we gain so much more knowledge when we SEE something in situ...

videos - a youtube-blessed-feature to share the videos that we take off our mobiles or digicams hee....

k... have fun searching through the Techonorati search bar with these tags. You may have a surprising find hee...

Monday, September 25, 2006

Tecnorati Tagging

wah... its a super duper tiring exercise... wanted to tag most of the blog posts.... only to find out after tagging almost 50 that i've been tagging them wrongly!!!! aiyo.... such a waste of efforts...

acutally hor.. its also because the Technorati server uploads my updates pretty slowly leh... so it was hard for me to find out if i've done it correctly... sigh.... more haste less speed! bleah.

for those who uses a blog reader which scans for updates... pls accept my apologies for the many updates on our previous postings.... ha ha ha....

okies... when i finally figure out how it works properly... i'll update u folks...

Friday, September 22, 2006

The Majulah that makes me want to sing along

Olivia Ong sings Majulah Singapura in a Japanese Stadium...



its been a long time since I heard this sang acapella.... reminds me of those days when our school sound system is down in the morning assemblys and our head prefect has to sing it acapella to lead us hee..... those were the days...

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Ad driving in SF!

check out how much faith our passengers have in Ad's driving hee....

For a newbie, I think Ad handled the roads pretty well, despite the different driving directions and steering.... but then again, we argued that he most likely have the LEAST problem getting used to driving on a different side of the road as he had the least driving exposure! ha ha ha....

also check out how one passenger nodded himself away throughout the whole intervew....



Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Thoughts of using Peppermint

Peppermint is a great new MacBook comes with built-in iSight which adds great convienience esp. when Ad is travelling, I wont have to worry about lugging around the iSight and the firewire cables, reducing a bit of bulk on the travel. Also, it comes with its own remote control to control iTunes, iPhoto, DVD and Videos just at the touch of a hand. The sensor is so cool that it can activate these s/w at any angle, any direction, super cool! unfortunately, I'm experiencing some lag in its use. Especially when i'm trying to turn it OFF after the machine goes to sleep.... Maybe Peppermint prefers to sleep.... hmm...

at 512Mb ram, its lag time to open up softwares is pretty SLOW! and slightly unbearable at times, not sure if its an Intel issue, as it did not happen to my 800Mhz 17' PB nor to Nicky (15' PB).

Okay... things i like about Peppermint includes the coolness of its whiteness... never had a white machine before, I wonder how long i can keep it in its prestine state.... hmm... its going to be challenging....

another thing I love about it is .... hmmm..... i cant think much... because its new???

right, it has most if not all the features of the other PB that i've experienced, so its nothing new to explore.

I was abit concern about its keyboard as it is abit too noisy for me, its got a pretty different feel to the PB. But after a few days, i've gotton used to it. In fact, its actually easier to type on this keyboard than the PB ones. Especially noticeable when my fingernails grow abit too long, it used to slip off the keys on the PB but here, it rarely happened.... unless of course when I am day dreaming! ha ha ha...

With the iSight built in, it also mean that I can be ultra VAIN on the macine, constantly checking out my hair, specs, clothes and how i look etc ha ha ha....

Something noticeably different about Peppermint is... she's not as loud as Nicky or the PB line as the speakers are built in a different part of the machine. I really miss the loud and clarity of Nicky's speakers. I was trying to listen to some podcast using my remote seated about 4m away from Peppermint, and it felt that it was loud enough even when the volune was at max! :( either Peppermint needs some speakers to broadcast.... or I need to dig the wax out of my ears!

another interesting feature of Peppermint as with her Intel peers, its her magnetic power connector... it got knocked out of the socket without me noticing it.... so it can be a potential harzard at work if I need to move around abit with it....especially, if i'm forgetful enough to not bring it home with me... eeks!!!

with 13.3" of screen space, all the fonts are tiny mini on Peppermint as compared to Nicky or 17" PB.... so my eyes are squinting abit MORE to see what's being written or typed, I'm not too sure if that's a good thing. I dread to open up my horrendously big excel files....

also the glossy screen has given me more reflections then i like....

so here's my first review of Peppermint.

here's to many more good years with Peppermint!

Birth of Peppermint!

Yes, we've got a new baby in the house. After many hours of deliberation, we have finally decided on her name. :)

Shes sweet looking, porcelin white, weighing 2.36kg at birth....

She was delivered by Alex..... she came late as with some first births....


She was all wrapped up upon delivery....


She was cushioned by super cute material hee....


She had some MORE wrapping.... so subtly beautiful she is, waiting to be explored....


Here's the video of getting her to voice out her thoughts and seeing her insides with colors....


yes, Peppermint is the name of our new MacBook! hee... 1.83Ghz, thanks to Singnet's broadband sign up deal... we'll be on 10Mbps line for the next 3 years as with the thousands of Singaporeans suckers for freebies during Commex ha ha ha....

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Social Irresponsibility III (smoke-free area)

There was some changes in the kopitiam experience in Jul after our garman imposed some restrictions on smoking and eating at the same time. So interestingly, the smoking community also had to adjust their eating and smoking habits in kopitiams that are too small to segregate an isolated space for these smoking crowd....

So imagine, if you have twenty tables, maybe 1-2 of these tables will be allocated as smoking areas.... they must be physically separated from the other tables. So in some outdoor MacDonalds, they simply put up a wooden barrier with alot of holes in it and hang some fake green figs around it to decorate it.... therefore, if you are seated behind the "barrier" you will still SMELL the smoke as it will definitely flow through the holes of the barrier and you will still be 10cm from that smoker.... :(

Got one evening, an adventurous smoker-friend showed us how he can by-pass this no-smoke-in-resturant rule can be BENT without any penalities... ha ha ha....

We were at an alfresco dining venue, next to us is a waist-height barrier to separate the resturant from the public pedestrian walkway.... and when he was seated opposite to us, it is considered ILLEGAL for him to smoke... but the moment he stands up, walk behind that tiny-mini barrier next to us.... he can smoke his lungs out. ha ha ha.....

One evening, we were having dinner with Otterman and ended up in one kopitiam withOUT a designated area for smokers, so what do they do? They stood under a tree, 10m away from the crowd, smoking away.... and guess which direction the wind was coming from??????? The smokers to the EATERS!!!! aiyo..... we were all breathing in smoke-laced air, blown by the wind... yes, our cloths have a faint tinge of cigarettes smell....



this smoke-ban thing around kopitiam like not very effective hor?

Listening

Strangely, the message that I heard during Sunday Mass was similar to the reading on my blog hee.... so here's it:

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 1 Peter 5:6-9 NIV

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One of these days I'll blog more about the past 9yrs where endometriosis has bug me, my family, my love life, my aspirations in life, the pains endured, the discomforts ignored, the uncertainties in our future, the heavy dose of related expenses....

Thinking about it in church, made me realise that, the only effective way through these experiences is to SHARE them.

Yes, allow my experience to be heard and read by others so that they wont have to take that long route of detour when they face similar issues/situation. Allow those in doubt to know that there's someone who has taken that route of pain/doubt/uncertainty in which they are not alone.

I hope that these sharing will help, someone, somewhere down the road....

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Speedtest: Singnet vs Pacnet

Singnet 10Mbps (wireless) line....

Locally within Singapore... a disappointing speed....


Yokohama


Sydney


Amsterdam


London


New York



Pacnet 512kbps (wireless)

Singapore


Yokohama


Sydney


Amsterdam


London


New York


This speedtest site is super cool eh? can put up the test results in just one line of script hee....

but some of the test results were disappointing.... din expect the line from Sydney to be faster than Yokohama....

and its like almost impossible to get a true 10Mbps line from anywhere in the world!

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Social Irresponsibility II (Conman Plumber)

I guess some of our friends have somethings which they want to share occassionally but not frequent enough for them to render setting up their own blogs. Hence, I've been given this task of sharing with my fren C's unpleasent experience. Here's the story... (pls note that names are initialized to protect the true identities of the person/s involved, in some cases, it is easy to give them a ring to identify their true names hee....)

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One day, my friend C's kitchen sink chute got stuck, he could not fix it himself and hence did the next best thing he could.... He opened up our trusty Strait's Time's Classified Ads. He knew that it often has advertisments of plumbers whom he can give a call and get a quote over the phone of how much it'll cost to ask them to come down to clear the chute.

Delighted to see the prices advertised from S$15 onwards, C gave Mr. P a call at his line with the following advertisment....


Over the phone, C asked about the specific pricing for his type of kitchen chute to clear and Mr. P gave him a quotation of S$30 which C thought was reasonable and invited Mr. P to come to his house to clear his kitchen chute. Within mins of arriving, Mr. P cleared his kitchen chute and demanded for $60 of payment for his services! After some exchange, C paid up the S$60 and asked for his receipt, Mr. P said that his reciept book is at his office and agreed to mail receipt to C.

Question: how can he change the price AFTER clearing??? even though they have a verbal agreement of $30?

Question: how can he as a "professional" plumber advertised on our NATIONAL newspapers regularly NOT have a receipt book with him? Hey come on! Even the auntie that char bee hoon can whip up a receipt book if you asked for one.

Hence, it leads us to think that this Mr. P is a professional Con-Plumber. No doubt that he can clear kitchen chutes to "clear" our household woes. But knowing that this is an easy job, he would "trick" his potential customers first on the phone by giving them a low quote and quickly do his "job" and demand for something else.

Yes, it seems totally unreasonable.

Yet, it happens!

Imagine if it happened to an elderly folk? They would definitely be at their mercy of whatever they ask for, yes, even my mum has been a victim of "expensive-stories" by these CON-men. They will give you some fancy names about the condition or the type of chute that you have and demand that you pay more. When in fact, be it a simple chute or a complicated one, they just use their bloody machine to pump out the stuff/clear the chute. What difference does it make to them?????????

That's not all, my friend who got the advertisment from Straits Times Classified Ads, gave his experience as feedback to the advertising unit to help other "potential victims" not to be Con by this Mr. P. Guess what was their respond?

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Dear Mr C,

We're sorry to hear of your unpleasant incident & would suggest that you bring this up to CASE & the police as well if it warrants for a legal offense case. From there, the police will then issue an order to prevent unethical advertisers from placing further adverts with the press.

Pls advice where you've seen this advert i.e. publication & publication date, tel no in advert etc so we can keep a lookout in case the police contacts us. Thank you for your feedback & hope CASE can assist u further.


Best regards,
R
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What sort of response is that?

Raise the issue to CASE? or the Police?

does she know that for CASE to take up any case, you'll have to pay for a year's membership which cost S$25 and S$10 administrative fees (total S$35) which will cost MORE the difference which C was forced to pay....

In addition, at CASE, you'll most likely spend 1-2hrs waiting in queue for your turn to speak to a CASE officer who will take down your particulars and ask for the details to your complaints taking anything from 30mins to 1hr. Then they will have to review your complaints to decide if they will take up your case. By which, half a day is gone. If they do decide to take up the case, they would fix an appointment with the company involved to come down for a mediation and reach a "happy" conclusion for both parties.... So all in all, would anyone want to spend 1 whole work day (take leave to go down to CASE as they operate during working hours) and spend another $35 on membership?

POLICE even more funny!!!

I think police will just laugh in your face lor.... because I've gone to the police previously before for several cases (i write those stories another day....) and they also laugh in my face... so I think that is also another waste-time effort. Besides, imagine if road accident does not involve any injured persons, please resolve the accident privately between the two/more parties, do you think for S$30 the police will interfer? Which police post do you go to? the one near where you stay? or the one near where the Con-man's office is? (Well, my friend did not get a receipt from him in the end, so how to know where he stay?)

The best advice the police will give is mostly likely..... Be more Careful next time lor.
they are more concern checking out the latest models of the mobile phones available than worrying about the social integration of greed and morality. to them i think $30 is a small matter.

To me, its a matter of ethics. It is immoral to purposely go out to cheat someone of their money/time/emotions. Mr. P could have explained to C about the difference about the pricing FIRST before he cleared the chute to see if C is willing to pay at the higher price.

BEST part is... this is not the end.... the problem with the chute returned. YES it did. Mr. P gave C a 3months warranty for his services, so if it gets stuck again, Mr. P should come down to take a look right? yes... right, now if we're wrong about calling him a con man, then he should be happy to come down and check out the chute and lived up to his words of warranty. Guess what happened???

Below is a letter from C to the ST R again, detailing the whole episode:
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Hi R,

Thanks for your response. I'd understand your limitations in dealing with such advertisers. Anyway, there is really no proof of what he had done because everything was verbal and he issued no receipt for his services.

For the benefit of your readers, I will just give a brief of the incident. The said ad is as attached, and is taken from the 31st Aug 06 edition of the ST Classified ads, Plumbing section (118 I think). As I checked, he is still advertising for his services today (6th Sep 06, Wednesday). The plumber goes by the name of "Mr. P".

On 31st Aug, I called and requested a quote to clear a floor trap choke, which was advertised at $15+. I explained that my floor trap is the one under my kitchen sink. Knowing that such advertisers tend to underquote in the advertisements, I agreed to his verbal quote of $30+ over the phone. So he came, and "cleared" the choke within 2 minutes. At the door, he asked for $60, claiming that others would have charged $65. He claimed that my "floor trap choke" was actually a "gulley choke" which warranted more money. This is after I had explained clearly where the choke was over the phone. Even then, a "gulley choke" was only quoted at $20+ on his advertisement. After some haggling and questioning, I paid the $60 and asked for a receipt which he claimed he could only issue at the office. I gave him my mailing address and he agreed to mail it to me. The receipt has yet to arrive. He also claimed that the service came with a "3-month warranty".

The story has not ended. On Sunday 3rd Sep the choke came back. I called the number and was told to "call back later". Subsequent calls were not answered. I tried again on Monday 4th Sep. I called 3 times and none was picked up. I checked that he had also placed an ad on that day. Eventually I engaged the services of a registered plumber through the Singapore Plumbing Society.

Nothing much I can do now but I guess this is a case of Caveat Emptor. Should CATS receive receive further complaints about this advertiser please do not hesitate to blacklist him.

Regards,
C
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So in the end, C had to call in ANOTHER plumber to clear his chute. of course at another additional cost.

This time he found out that there was a Singapore Plumbing Society. (http://www.plumbing.org.sg/)
And he used a registered plumber from this society instead.

I'm not sure how many people know about this society. Its definitely new to me.

But at the end of this story....

Who is responsible for placement of Advertisements? Should ST be cautious not to encourage immoral practises if they were warned of it by users?

If ST does not exercise such caution, would it throw potential readers off? I may remember this irresponsible behaviour and remind myself and those around me NOT to use ST advertised plumbers etc... Why is there no move towards being a more responsible merchant?

How would CASE justify $35 (membership & admin fees) to be levied on the victims of bad business practises? Havent the victims paid enough for it already? Is there another way to blacklist a company, a service without COST? or a lesser cost?

Can Police catch Mr. P and throw him in jail for $30 con-job? or not mailing the receipt to C? for not honoring his 3months warranty? This seems like a pretty small case as compared to the murder, arson cases or worse terrorist cases which the police are focusing their efforts on to protect us the citizens.

Why? Why like that?

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

New Shuffle & iPod Nano in Color!

THE NEW SHUFFLE!!
its so tiny that you can easily mistake it for a belt clip.... its so functional that you cannot resist not getting it.....


THE NEW NANO


so cool.... cant wait to get my hands on either of them.... or better still BOTH of them! ha ha ha

bet they'll be a sell out for Christmas gift... so for those who want to surprise your loved ones with this lovely gift, better place your orders NOW!!!

wonder how many will be wearing the new iPod Nano for this year's Marathon with their Nike Plus?? it'll be a colorful race....

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

I'm High on Porridge

yes....its my 8th running day of eating porridge.... and i'm going insane eating and eating them.... I think I'll have to use the food processor on them soon and just drink them as with the milk, milo, chicken soup etc.....

will blog about the details of my op soon.... at least i'm recovering from seeing the gross video footages..... but yet to muster up courage to discuss ....

soon

soon....

The washing up AFTER a dive trip....

I'm sure this is the part which I dislike MOST about a dive trip.... the WASHING of the equipment!!!

This is our first attempt in squeezing two sets of dive equipment into our smallie tiny bathroom to dry..... not too bad for a first attempt ha ha ha....

THE FINs....


THE BCDs


The Shorties & Sausages...


THE MASKs


THE BAGs


THE colorful stuff....


not bad for a small loo and the first attempt, we manage to dry most of them in 24hrs, while the wetsuit took a little longer... but thanks to Ikea's racks, we just realised how much rack space we have in our loo ha ha ha....

NO we wont wash YOUR dive gear for YOU....

but we can loan our toilet space for you to dry them... hee...... (we can negoiate friendship prices.... especially if you throw in a FREE dive trip for two... ha ha ha)

yes... i'm high.... on porridge!!!

JB Makan (fm may hee...)

forgot all about this excellent makan place which we had our super LATE dinner on the way back from our dive trip... (which also reminds me that Blim has yet to give me a copy of the photos which we took on his camera... hmm... beep beep blim blim....)

woah.... the local delights here are many!!!

The atmosphere here to cheong and try out all the different food is irresistable!! We all had to control our hunger & emotions to consolidate the "buyers" and the "table-seekers"... in the end, after the "table-seekers" found a spot, they all became "buyers" ha ha ha.... cos there were simply too many choices!! its impossible to make a decision from 50m away....

yes, the stalls sells food on one side of the road, the tables are on the other side of the road. cool eh? Got ATmOSpHerE right???

and the best part is... they sell alot alot of variety.... and alot alot of nice traditional kuehs!!! sorry ah, cannot resist temptations to keep eating and eating.... *slurp*

but then hor... i cannot remember how to get there again... :(
mayb C will have a better memory of navigating there....









what is a dive trip without a pig out session? it doesnt feel complete....

okay.. honestly, I cannot decide which I like better... the diving or the pigging out sessions.... hmm.....

I think we've got to try it again to verify!! Right guys???? ha ha ha

I'm a MacMillionAir



you can be one too!

Monday, September 04, 2006

Staying up to keep Anxieties at Bay

I've been told to sleep early.....

Because in a few hours time, I'll be checking into a 5* hospital to do my 5th surgery in 9years.

the last op i had was 5yrs ago, when i was diagnosed with endometriosis AGAIN!
(a condition where the menstral blood back flows from the uterus (womb) to the ovary and forms a bloody cyst there)
I was really tired that year, because dad was hospitalized for heart attack two months before that. Mum was hospitalized for fatigue as a result of taking care of my dad at home (ha ha ha). Then in the 3rd month ME!

So I googled the word endometriosis and found that there's quite a few support groups for this condition. No, I'm not alone in experiencing immense mentral pain during my periods, terrible backaches amist the emotional yo-yo that many others take for granted that I'm moody (back in my teenage years). I've probably got this condition for years and years and yet, parents/aunties/friends always tell us that its normal to experience pain during menstration.

No, it is NOT normal to experience EXTREME pain.

You know, women developed high threshold of pain because of menstration and yet, this threshold can sometimes kill them.

It almost killed me... 9 yrs ago....

I had menstral pain so so so so terrible that I knew I could not sleep it off, I told my mum about it and she rushed me to the hospital (TTSH). There they diagnosed the condition as appendicitis and operated on me only to find out that it wasnt really the case. Read the rest of the history here.

Y did it kill me?

I was a young woman, full of aspirations for my life ahead. My secret dream was to wed at 23 and have kids at 25. (we'll try to fit in the other parts like finding someone special, finishing school, finding job etc somehow....). With that irresponsible act of the surgeon, my dreams were completely shattered. My chances were reduced by 50%....

And those who know me can testify how much I love children. I almost died knowing that one of my ovary is gone for good. I din even have the chance to say good bye :(

Thereafter, in the same year, I've been operated on 2 more times.

When I knew about the condition 5yrs ago, I asked myself if there was anything to fear about the operation and the answer in my head was NO. So when I readily told my gynea that I'll do the op again for the 4th time in 2001, I really thought that it was no big deal.

How wrong I was.......

The coldness of the operating theatre was fought off by piling 4 layers of blanket on myself. But the desire to sleep forever from the operation was hardest to struggle through. I recall pulling away from waking up. Maybe it was because my body knew that the recovery process was going to be really really really painful........

oh yes, painful.......

imagine a hard file across your abdomen, walk with it, sleep with it. you are practically immobilized.

yep, you can bet that i kinda scolded myself for undermining the PAIN from the surgery.

So well, now that I've to face it for the 5th time. What do I do??

There are quite a lot of pitfalls leh....

My counter-action. Dun think about it.

Not at all.

Just Do It.

Why do you think i'm still up at 5am.

My strategy is to starve my body of so much sleep that I'll just knock out anyway on the bed tomorrow ha ha ha.... go into it with a zombie state of mind, it'll numb all anxieties and sense for fear and pain!

And of course, I'll be bringing Psalm 91 with me....

(now gotta memorise it...)

400th Blog!

hello world!

its our 400th entry on our blog!

Yahoo!!

and its 0444hr on the 4th Sept 2006!

lots of 4 eh?

Listen with your heart not your mind

I had a breakdown in church yesterday because it had dawn upon me that i'm a bad listener....

yes, I am. I've failed to hear the gentle voices coming from the Holy One.

The day before my parents's trip to GZ, mum boiled soup and asked if I would like to go back and drink it. I said yes immediately. I could only drink the soup in the afternoon as I was suppose to accompany a friend to see a doctor in the late afternoon. As the timing for the whole consultation may take a long time, I did not want to make any promises to mum about dinner....

During the day, I learnt that my friend also got another friend to accompany him to see the doctor. Although I felt redundant upon hearing that, I wanted fulfill my promise of accompanying my friend. I did not want to be a fair-weathered person...

I reached parent's place, rushed to sort out the things for mum, helped her pack her medical bags and gave her the goodies that she wanted and bought her a windbreaker for the trip.

Dad was seated on the long sofa. It was a while since I had this opportunity to sit next to him and talk to him. Usually he'll be taking his nap or reading his papers. He was seldom "open" for conversations. I asked if he was ready for the trip and he replied there was nothing to be ready for or something along the line of not wanting to be ready for it. I felt strange about it and did not attempt to probe further as time was running out for me to settle things with mum and rush for the doc's appt.

Something in my head told me to talk to dad more, but I din do it. I ignored it and went on doing what I felt was right (at that time).

When I rushed to the clinic, my friend was not even there yet! yes, he was late for his own appointment. and very late somemore!

There was this sense of anguish in me. Wondering why am I more anxious than my friend..... but I kept reminding myself, that I have to fulfill my honor as a friend, to be with him. So I waited and waited. Finally, when he arrived, he wanted to see the doctor with his friend instead... I was happy to just be there physically to show my support. Yet, I had the feeling that I wasnt very useful in that scenario, if I had known, I would have stayed home and spent more time with Dad.

While waiting for my friend to finish his appt, I spent my time wondering if I did the right thing. Yes, I did feel redundant at the clinic. And questioned my presence there.

Was God trying to tell me something throughout the whole afternoon?

I really do not know.... then...

Yesterday in church, it suddenly dawn upon me that the tiny voice COULD be God telling me to do the right thing by being fillial first!

I had just missed the chance to spend the last few precious moments with my Dad, one whom I'll never be able to communicate again. :(

I'm sharing this because I do not wish for anyone else to make this mistake as I did.

Listen with your heart not your mind.

I hope that through this sharing, someone out there will continue to pass on the goodness of God, listening to Him, following His wishes. Remember that kinship is more precious than what we imagine it to be. It was God's planning to put us in the same family.

Monday, September 4

'Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.' Luke 6:37-38 NIV

Social Irresponsibility I

few months ago, I was on the train and to my disgust, there were many young students who would yak their time away seated on the train without bothering with the elderly standing around them.

to quantify the "MANY" statement.... it happened to 3 train rides which I took in a day... now that's like 100% chance out of the many train rides/day out of the many cabins/train out of the many different directions of train/time.... is that coincidence or a reality?

you decide!

on the first two rides, I boarded the train at the begining of the train line and had a seat to myself, upon seeing the elderly, I jolted out of my seat to give way to them. One of the gentleman was so polite about it that we striked up a conversation and he asked me to join PAP! ha ha ha.... I'm not sure if its the post-GE fever still running in him. During the train journey, he shared his experience as a volunteer to serve the country in his own way, his friend vouching for their passion in being part of the political scene in Singapore. it was quite an enjoyable journey sharing their experiences. But I'm not sure if I would take their advice.....

last journey was really frustrating, on one side of the train there were a whole row of girls seated and giggling away. On the other side, was a mother-son team and a few other young students in their school uniform seated. As I was standing, their noise levels rose to incredible decibels that even my ears stuffed with my earphones can hear their squeals and conversations. Well, its public transport....

When an elderly gentleman boarded that cabin with his walking stick, he was clearly elderly and weak. Yet, no one moved their butts!!!

Suddenly the coversations died down, the girls started to close their eyes into sleep and the mother-son team started to stare out of space, the people seated directly under the signs of "Please give up your seats to those in need" were either sleeping or reading profusely. All engaged in their own world....

I was truly disgusted!!! I stared at the students.... but what's the use, they are in "deep" sleep due to their long day at school....

I was really angry at the many students who remained seated, what are they taught in school? Where's social ethics? Wheres that basic courtesy of giving up their seats for the elderly? I remember learning them when I was in primary school, did they take that chapter out of the book these days??

I was also mad with the mother-son team, because they clearly saw the elderly man and yet the mum did not have the decency to ask her son to give up his seat (especially when he was so restless, cannot sit still on his seat). Its a precious moment to teach your child about respect for the elderly. Show them the way to practise good moral and social behaviour. If you do not instil such behaviour at a young age, then when? Do not ask why my son has gone astray, taking drugs and ruining his own life, when as a parent you fail to teach him precious moral values. And in her old age, do not ask why her son doesnt want to take care of her.... it because she has failed to show her son how to do it right!

I stared at those ladies... but their contention were, these seats are not the "special give way seats".

so after a few stops, I asked the elderly man if he was going to be on the train for a long journey, if so, I'll try to persuade someONE to give up their seats for him.... he was very courteous and shook his head to reply no no.... I guess he felt shy and pressurized.

One lady heard me asking the elderly man and she quickly got up. Yes, she responded FINALLY. I guess I spoke loud enough for someone who actually cared enough to move their butts!

these are the photos.... see for yourself!











I wanted to take these pictures to show that it really did happen! and not a fabrication of my imagination.....

Sunday, September 03, 2006

getting slaughtered for the 5th time...

for many, going into the hospital, seeing a doctor on a regular basis, going into the operating theatre may seems foreign, scary, intimidating.

but for me, it feels like a routine.

its a weird thing to feel routine about especially when I'm not a doctor nor a nurse nor work IN the medical industry.

I could almost recite the sequence of events or what is more commonly called SOP for the "check-in", op and discharge procedures.

I'm not sure if it was a good thing or not but a reading that I came across kinda told me that if its God's plan for me, it cannot be anything bad. We just have to trust in the Lord!